I am really trying

Do you know why I can't post a blog every day? Because I think my life is just too boring. And you think, how can a life with two young boys be boring? Well it really isn't. It's quite eventful and the children pipe off with some of the greatest phrases I ever heard, I just can't remember them all.  And usually by the end of the day I am so mentally exhausted from them fighting or making messes all day that I can't even think of how my day went except for chaotic.

Every post would be titled "My Chaos Today" and it wouldn't be nice or fun. I want to keep this blog as positive as possible. Plus there is my job, which also throws me into severe depression, so most of the time I just feel like I would be complaining and I would tell you all how much I hate everything and no one wants to read Debbie Downers blog. So I am trying to post more from here on out and this is why.

My 30th birthday is approaching in 26 days (yes, I am counting down) and for the last five years I've been dreading it, but it's here, it's going to happen and to be honest I am kind of excited. I've been inspired to document my last days as a twenty something and write about what it's like to be in my 30's. I know that little to nothing will change in me, but do know that I want some change in my life. Looking back on the last 10 years, I've grown up so much , I've learned so much but at the same time it's all a big blur. If someone asked me what I've been doing, all I can say is that I got the husband, got the kids, the dog, the house and the mini van. I've accomplished what I started at the age of 17. To have a "fairytale life" that I always imagined. I am not a house wife though, that's a little disappointing but we live in 2010's not the 1950's and men these days think it's a joke for a woman to stay home and be a home maker.

What do I want to do for the next decade? Remember more about my day to day life, which is why I intend to blog more. I also want to get healthy, physically and mentally. I want more confidence. And maybe get a college degree and a real job, I better not be in a pizza joint halfway to 40, I'll tell you that right now....
One more thing, we'll have a teenager in 5 years, I can't wait for that!  

Thanks for reading,
A